Wishing, wanting, hoping, hating, alone

1 Love danced in the gleam of your eyes
Hope in the assertion of ownership
Pushing back the tide of silence
To magic the giving
Of an idea

Anquish danced in your eyes
The fear of loosing
The bond
As the chemicals swilled
Upsetting your life

Anger danced in your eyes
Not understanding
How giving yourself
Could not be rewarded
Destroying your pride

Hatred danced in your eyes
Deceived
Hating
Plotting
Destroying yourself

Peace closed your eyes
Alone

2 Superficiality danced in your eyes
When you smiled
and called me,
"Friend"

Misunderstanding danced in your eyes
When you read my life
because I lied to you
"Fiend"

Tears danced in your eyes
When I walked away from you
Another girl you would have to
"Find"

Peace closed my eyes
Thick lonliness

3
i sewed my eyes shut
so NOTHING could get inside.
4 And yet I still
can't stop these
feelings
It's not my eyes
that need to be shut
It's this goddamned
Heart
It keeps growing back
After it has been
unanaesthetically ripped
out of my
chest
On more than one
occasion